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The meeting was not what I expected.I guess I have watched to many Law and Order episodes,the one where the cops drill the rape victim as if they were on the stand under cross examination from a sadist DA.Instead I was asked a series of seemingly unrelated questions and only the politest enquiries of the actual details of my abuse.Names and dates where given,I was treated with the utmost respect through out.The only mention of my criminal past was made by me,it did not (nor should it) seem to be a factor they were interested in,not now anyhow.
The whole meeting took less then fifteen minutes,and while they did not give me the impression that they where in a hurry,I could detect an underlying current that swept the interview along at a good pace.Assured that the matter would be directed to the proper authority and that I would be notified very soon of the next step and I was told I was free to go.Yes,those where the words he used"free to go "a phrase I am sure just becomes natural for a police officer to use.Who else would end a meeting using those words?
Reading back over the last part of this it may seem to some that I was being snubbed.I did not mean to give that impression,as it is the furthest thing from the truth.No,I was treated with dignity and respect,and while they were brief,it is fully understandable.The people I talked to today are not the ones that will be doing the actual investigation,just who will be is up in the air at the moment.The crime did not happen in this city,the pedophile does not live here,nor where the crime was committed. Jurisdictions will have to be worked out and other details have to be checked,then they will be back in touch with me.I do not think it will be long.I was told a "few days"but we all know what that can mean.The wheels of Justice have never been known as turning at a fast speed.I was assured that the Police where the pedophile is living will be notified "immediately"and that proper steps would be taken to protect the children that may be around the sickco and that is the whole point of this.I was again urged to get a lawyer though,as there is almost always counter accusations made(how that can be true was not explained) and that I should have a lawyer to ensure all my rights were protected and served.If any wrong doing on the part of officials of the scouts or education system are uncovered I was told it was vital that my lawyer be the first to know.I have already made it clear I do not blame those organizations,but the police Sergeant told me not to count anything or anybody out of the equation,not yet,and not without a lawyer.I was also told to refrain from talking about the case of course,so you will all have to wait to find out that it was John Quesnel,former teacher and scoutmaster in Semans Saskatchewan Canada,last known to be living in Regina Saskatchewan Canada,that is the sick twisted pedophile that raped and abused me for over two years.Wish I could tell you now encase some of you know him,I want to make sure children are safe around him.Will just have to wait I guess.
There is absolutely no way I can hire a lawyer.I live on a very tiny "disability allowance"the fancy term my government as given to us welfare recepients who have been deemed unable to easily find or to do employment due to disabilities.After my rent and utilities,phone and IP are paid,I have (just got a raise!) $272.00 per month to buy food,clothing and toiletries,entertain myself,pay for presents etc.Almost $60.00 is needed for bus fare as I must travel four time a week for my Drug Treatment Program.I have just paid for all of that,and I have like I implied before $4.98 left to last me to the New Year.No,a lawyer is out I am afraid.Unless another Miracle takes place,but I feel I have used up my quota for one lifetime,it is certianly nothing I would bother God about.
I will not ask or borrow,not again.God will provide.A million visitors will hit my web sites this month,that should do it!(if I spell it out to you how that would help I would be breaking some rule I dare not).
Remember my mentioning of Proust and my love of the Masters?It is the worst kind of irony that I owe my introduction to such authors to the very pedophile that I am now attempting to bring to juctice.It was he who in his constant attempts to buy my affections,to groom me as it where,that first showed me that there was another world outside of the little praire village I lived in.He soon came to realize that I was more precocious then even the girls my age,and that my reading level was at a college level while I was still in grade school.He cultivated a friendship with me using literature as a basis,advising me on what and who to read,oftening giving me "gifts" of classic books.If I still owned today some of those first editions he bought me,then I could afford a lawyer!
He particulary like me reading books that while not pornagraphic by today's standards,did however contain explict sexual scenes,many with bi-sexual characters,as if that was the norm.Perhaps not pornagraphic by today's standard yes,but acceptable reading for a thirteen year old boy,NO,not now and certainly not then.So in a sense,you could say that if I had not been the victim of a child molestor,I would not have the love of reading and writing that mean so much to me today.That is just one of the HAPPY parts of this tale of misery and suffering.
As I was leaving the Police Station,I caught a whiff of a new odor,it had a familiarity to it,but it took me a moment to recognize it.It seemed to be overpowering the other negative odor's,and mixed as it was with the street odor's,it did not bring back memories,but instead promised to create new ones,for it was the sweet smell of FREEDOM! yes,I am free at last!Free of guilt and shame.Free of doubts.Free to shout
MY NAME IS DOUG.I AM AN ALCOHOLIC AND DRUG ADDICT.I AM A SURVIVOR OF SEXUAL ABUSE.I AM FREE AND HAPPY AND I LOVE GOD!thank you.
posted by MrAdVenture @ 12/04/2005
thank you for having the courage to tell your story.
I love the way you associate so much by the smells. You did well by creating enough courage to walk into the Police station, it took some guts but I am proud of you. Good luck boy
Doug, congratulations on this step. It is a difficult thing to face the unknown. I know how you feel. I had to tell the police about my abuse a couple years after it happened. This did me actually no good for there was no counselling to go with it no support and the decision of being abused all over again on the stand was too much to bear.I am proud of you and the step you took today. All of us who have gone through this were there with you today in heart if not in spirit.
Lets hope the sucker gets it in jail.I hate diddlers!Just send him in with a skin label,the boys will handle him. You say you are an ex-con so I know you understand me.
Behind this keyboard I sit here typing with a smile on my face...YOU DID IT!!! Good on you man!!! You have just accomplished what millions of others (victims) have been unable to do for one reason or another. Keep your head up brother, I'm proud of you!!! On behalf of those unheard victims, I thank you.In Him,soniia
I Wasn't Alone.......Wow... it felt like I was there with you...not just in spirit. I will spread the address around to as many places that I can.. Dan
I've been there myself, although not quite to the degree that you went through, but addiction is addiction at any level. I know what you say is true and I'm thrilled that you've decided to tell the story, the whole story, in all it's ugliness. I told my story because you cannot fully explain Gods love and mercy without telling what He delivered you from. Bravo to you and I pray you'll continue to thrive and be an example to others. Keep on keeping on my brother and God bless. You'll continue to be in our thoughts and prayers.Sincerely,bro.larryFounderThe Larry Mullinax Ministries
In regards to the sexual abuse, I went through that from my father at age 14. It all happened so fast and it over as quick as it began. But not for me. I spent the next 35 years thinking I had done something terrible. Through counseling I was finally able to say, through the tears, "I DIDN'T DO ANYTHING WRONG!" That was turning point. I am so thrilled that you had the courage to come forward. I know how hard that must have been. But you DID IT MAN! Again, keep on keeping on!Sincerely,Larry Mullinax
You can make a documentary from your jeremiad.God bless.
Doug-Courageous, truthful, smart- enduring...just a few words to describe YOU!! in support-CarolInmate Activists
if anyboby can make sense of the comment before this one,please let me know!
Hi-- sorry, don't know what was said, but perhaps something in an aboriginal lanaguage from someone expressing a fellow feeling to yours...?? I thank you for your courage, self-insight, and for following through your conversion with a mission. And,you are a great writer to boot! God bless you!
Way to go! Courage!We just conducted a forensic interview with my son and are pressing charges now (around the same time you're going through your process), so I know what a big and terrifying step it can be. Good for you for getting the nerve up to hold that liar, manipulator, and criminal accountable for his actions. Good for you!
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